I'm so done with all this shit. I'm sick of all the fighting that goes down. I'm sick of the random periods of not talking. I'm sick of not knowing what's going on.

I want everything to be good again.
I want to be happy.

That's all.

~Lucy

bambooozle!

Guess who's officially going to Bamboozle.

...Obviously, I'm not going to make you guys guess, since this is my blog and I'm going to be mainly talking about myself. But it's my blog so that's not being conceited, k? Either read it or go home. Anyways, I will be going to Bamboozle on April 30th, which is the Saturday date because I'm not allowed to go on Friday and Saturday. :( But I'm happy to be going in the first place! Then on Tuesday, I'm going to see All Time Low on their Dirty Work tour at Nokia Theater in Manhattan. I think it's Times Square...?

If any of you readers see this and are going to either event, feel free to comment and let me know! I'd love to meet you guys there. (:

Love,
Lucy

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S: What kind of music do you like to listen to?
L: Good music.

lately

I've been really depressed lately. I just feel like either I'm too good for the people around me, or, in a few cases, I'm not good enough. I just don't know what's right and what's wrong. I can't afford to associate with the people who I believe are worth my time - literally - and my trying to is killing me.

I just want some answers. I want to know if what I'm doing is right, wrong, or if it even matters! I just hate the majority of the people around me.

Some of them I thought were pretty cool at first, but then I realized how BORING they were. How gross they were. And just how they just weren't good enough.

Then I began to notice how the "cool" people were, well, cool. But I still don't see how they're cool to the extent that they are.

I mean, I just don't understand people. I don't understand myself. I want everything to be clear for one moment, just so I can try to find my way.

I've been so down lately I can't even remember what being up feels like. I'm just annoyed with EVERYONE around me. I'm sick and tired of everything.

I want to stop thinking these thoughts.
I want to stop feeling these feelings.
I want to stop hearing these voices.
I just want something I can believe in. I want something that I know is right in every possible way.
Underneath it all, I just want to be hopelessly, endlessly, forever happy.

~Lucy