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S: What kind of music do you like to listen to?
L: Good music.

lately

I've been really depressed lately. I just feel like either I'm too good for the people around me, or, in a few cases, I'm not good enough. I just don't know what's right and what's wrong. I can't afford to associate with the people who I believe are worth my time - literally - and my trying to is killing me.

I just want some answers. I want to know if what I'm doing is right, wrong, or if it even matters! I just hate the majority of the people around me.

Some of them I thought were pretty cool at first, but then I realized how BORING they were. How gross they were. And just how they just weren't good enough.

Then I began to notice how the "cool" people were, well, cool. But I still don't see how they're cool to the extent that they are.

I mean, I just don't understand people. I don't understand myself. I want everything to be clear for one moment, just so I can try to find my way.

I've been so down lately I can't even remember what being up feels like. I'm just annoyed with EVERYONE around me. I'm sick and tired of everything.

I want to stop thinking these thoughts.
I want to stop feeling these feelings.
I want to stop hearing these voices.
I just want something I can believe in. I want something that I know is right in every possible way.
Underneath it all, I just want to be hopelessly, endlessly, forever happy.

~Lucy

NEVER SAY NEVER

Today, I went to see Justin Bieber's new movie Never Say Never, not really knowing what to expect. After watching it, I realized that it's kind of amazing and I like Justin Bieber.
I know what you're thinking. "Oh my God, she's switched over to the dark side!"
But trust me, I'm all good. Same person. Only I like the Biebz.
I just realized that he's not as bad as everyone says he is. He's just a kid like me, trying to make it big and make his dreams come true. He really inspires me, and I like that.

Never Say Never ;)
~Lucy

alone.

Once again, I am alone. Sitting on my MacBook Pro. On a Friday night.

OMG MY LIFE IS SO INTERESTING RIGHT??? 

Meh. I have a swim meet later so hopefully that shall provide some entertainment. 

immagodeuces

Ooh la la!

I'm currently listening to really bad French music because Madame said so.
I don't understand it. I don't like it. And it just sucks, okay?
I'm so glad that I live in America where there's actually good music around,
If you look hard enough.

Here are French songs for you to listen to if you're really bored.
Otherwise, I would not recommend that you listen to these songs,
But I felt the need to include them since I mentioned them.
(I also gave comments on the songs if you're interested.)

Click here to listen to Benjamin Biolay!: How the hell did this guy win best male artist in the 2010 Music Awards in France? This song is freaking depressing.

Click here to listen to the musical stylings of Olivia Ruiz: She won best female artist, and I'm just going to say that this is good because she's way better than Benjamin Biolay, even though her music still isn't that good.

Click here for the most original song, by Coeur De Pirate: Okay, I'll admit that this song is okay. Maybe even good. But I still don't like French music. This is the best out of the bunch.


Click here to listen to "urban music": LOLWUT!?!? who the fuck would listen to this shit?

Click here to listen to Kool Shen: I'm convinced that these people named themselves "Kool Shen" because they think it's cool and gangster. Correction: GANGSTA.

I can't even listen to this anymore. I hope you enjoy, and I promise I'll never write about French music ever again. Ever. Ever. Ever. Ever. Ever. I think I'll just go now.

Love,
Lucy

Love Will Tear Us Apart

This is such a depressing title, considering that Valentine's Day is tomorrow...
But I'm single and February 14th is just going to be another Monday,
So why should I care?



When routine bites hard,
And ambitions are low
And resentment rides high,
But emotions won't grow, 
And we're changing our ways, 
Taking different roads. 


P.S. I personally like The Cure's cover of "Love Will Tear Us Apart. If you don't, go on YouTube where you can listen to the original or multiple covers (i.e. Fall Out Boy, New Order, Susanna and the Magical Orchestra). The options are endless!

a day in the life*

welllllz today was not a good day for me at all.

I found out that my averages two classes were pretty much terrible. My overall average is currently a 94.88 so if I miss Honors with Distinction by .1 of a point, I will fucking murder someone.

Just now, my father went through all of my stuff looking for the house phone which he misplaced because he's the only person in the house that fucking uses the house phone like ever and I'm telling him it's not in my room and to stop messing up my stuff and going through it and he won't stop and I got mad at him to get out so he's fucking screaming at me now to stop while he's the one that's fucking ruining everything!

I might not go to the Bamboozle for all 3 days because my mother is annoying.

Oh yeah, and I'm pretty sure that I will never find a boyfriend.

kbyeeeeeeeeee (;
lucy