I'm so done with all this shit. I'm sick of all the fighting that goes down. I'm sick of the random periods of not talking. I'm sick of not knowing what's going on.

I want everything to be good again.
I want to be happy.

That's all.

~Lucy

bambooozle!

Guess who's officially going to Bamboozle.

...Obviously, I'm not going to make you guys guess, since this is my blog and I'm going to be mainly talking about myself. But it's my blog so that's not being conceited, k? Either read it or go home. Anyways, I will be going to Bamboozle on April 30th, which is the Saturday date because I'm not allowed to go on Friday and Saturday. :( But I'm happy to be going in the first place! Then on Tuesday, I'm going to see All Time Low on their Dirty Work tour at Nokia Theater in Manhattan. I think it's Times Square...?

If any of you readers see this and are going to either event, feel free to comment and let me know! I'd love to meet you guys there. (:

Love,
Lucy

ilml.

S: What kind of music do you like to listen to?
L: Good music.

lately

I've been really depressed lately. I just feel like either I'm too good for the people around me, or, in a few cases, I'm not good enough. I just don't know what's right and what's wrong. I can't afford to associate with the people who I believe are worth my time - literally - and my trying to is killing me.

I just want some answers. I want to know if what I'm doing is right, wrong, or if it even matters! I just hate the majority of the people around me.

Some of them I thought were pretty cool at first, but then I realized how BORING they were. How gross they were. And just how they just weren't good enough.

Then I began to notice how the "cool" people were, well, cool. But I still don't see how they're cool to the extent that they are.

I mean, I just don't understand people. I don't understand myself. I want everything to be clear for one moment, just so I can try to find my way.

I've been so down lately I can't even remember what being up feels like. I'm just annoyed with EVERYONE around me. I'm sick and tired of everything.

I want to stop thinking these thoughts.
I want to stop feeling these feelings.
I want to stop hearing these voices.
I just want something I can believe in. I want something that I know is right in every possible way.
Underneath it all, I just want to be hopelessly, endlessly, forever happy.

~Lucy

NEVER SAY NEVER

Today, I went to see Justin Bieber's new movie Never Say Never, not really knowing what to expect. After watching it, I realized that it's kind of amazing and I like Justin Bieber.
I know what you're thinking. "Oh my God, she's switched over to the dark side!"
But trust me, I'm all good. Same person. Only I like the Biebz.
I just realized that he's not as bad as everyone says he is. He's just a kid like me, trying to make it big and make his dreams come true. He really inspires me, and I like that.

Never Say Never ;)
~Lucy

alone.

Once again, I am alone. Sitting on my MacBook Pro. On a Friday night.

OMG MY LIFE IS SO INTERESTING RIGHT??? 

Meh. I have a swim meet later so hopefully that shall provide some entertainment. 

immagodeuces

Ooh la la!

I'm currently listening to really bad French music because Madame said so.
I don't understand it. I don't like it. And it just sucks, okay?
I'm so glad that I live in America where there's actually good music around,
If you look hard enough.

Here are French songs for you to listen to if you're really bored.
Otherwise, I would not recommend that you listen to these songs,
But I felt the need to include them since I mentioned them.
(I also gave comments on the songs if you're interested.)

Click here to listen to Benjamin Biolay!: How the hell did this guy win best male artist in the 2010 Music Awards in France? This song is freaking depressing.

Click here to listen to the musical stylings of Olivia Ruiz: She won best female artist, and I'm just going to say that this is good because she's way better than Benjamin Biolay, even though her music still isn't that good.

Click here for the most original song, by Coeur De Pirate: Okay, I'll admit that this song is okay. Maybe even good. But I still don't like French music. This is the best out of the bunch.


Click here to listen to "urban music": LOLWUT!?!? who the fuck would listen to this shit?

Click here to listen to Kool Shen: I'm convinced that these people named themselves "Kool Shen" because they think it's cool and gangster. Correction: GANGSTA.

I can't even listen to this anymore. I hope you enjoy, and I promise I'll never write about French music ever again. Ever. Ever. Ever. Ever. Ever. I think I'll just go now.

Love,
Lucy